To be frank, I even forgot that I am having a blog here where I used to visit annually, as Maveli comes to visit us once in a year.
Even if I did not forget that, nothing much would have happened. My mind is empty, I have nothing to pen down. Even in my Malayalam blog where I used to post 4/5 posts a month, I have published only 7 posts in 7 months
In my last post on 1.1.2010 I had said that I feel relaxed and happy, there are plenty of colourful flowers in my garden, sparrows are making their nests in my plants and that my days are colourful.....
Now everything has changed. No flowers, no garden. I am alone and alone. Even in this loneliness, I try to find out new friends and new colours to life. I am not sure how much I can succeed. I have some little plants in my balcony and one or two "ampala pravukal" coming. I have to make my days colourful in one way or other. Now I get more time to read, and hence I am a regular visitor of Public Library, Thrissur. I am also engaged in some charity acitivities, details of which I can't disclose.
I am not going to be in dark, since I have to go "miles and miles to go before I sleep" and a lot of things are there for me to shoulder. I know what fate brought for me is irreparable and a loss for ever. But I am awaiting for some more good, days which I will try to make as colourful.
As Devi chechi advised - don't spend your time crying, looking back the good old days, but do wait for the coming days and make them GOOD. Look down the people who are less fortunate or more miserable.
I am not going to look back and worry, but I am awaiting for the coming days.....
A view from my balcony - ഒരു സന്ധ്യ കൂടി വിട വാങ്ങുന്നു.
Typist.
